So many dreams but so little support. No one to look up to but myself now. I need to take that step forward and become self-driven. Ash Wednesday is finally here and I've chosen to give up procrastination. I've endured it far too long and it's about time I finally chase after my goals. I hope to last for over these next 40 days and 40 nights.
I used to focus much of my time on art, music, dance, and theatre. I want to sink myself into it again but mainly focusing towards art, music, and poetry..
I want to be more in depth with its history too.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Monday, February 15, 2010
Toys.
No one's perfect nor innocent so I have no shame in writing this.
Having a friend with certain privileges is never easy unless you carelessly enjoy sleeping around. I never thought it was simple and I find myself in this situation. I find myself wondering if this will ever go somewhere or if one of us will just find someone new and call it quits.
A part of me says, "Leave," while the other says, "Stay. How often do you run into someone like him and shares that much passion for music?" He is my friend and little more.
However, I have to admit.. I enjoy being untitled to any sort of commitment. I'm not one who enjoys having two different partners so, of course, they have nothing to worry about, which leaves me to be the one worried.
I can't point fingers toward anyone because I placed myself in this position. Correct?
..maybe.
Because so-and-so and I are "buddies", I have to constantly remind myself not to put my heart out there.
I feel like I'm trying to catch something I know can never be caught. In fact, I'm unaware of all the reasons why I should be chasing after him in the first place. His heart is flying forward in front of me chasing after dreams and I've become restless.
On a brighter note, besides babysitting, work and school is starting to pick up again, which will definitely keep me occupied. :]
I need to keep myself active again. It's been a while!
Class is starting tomorrow and I'm excited! Tomorrow I'm taking a Japanese martial arts class called Naginata, which requires a spear. Afterward, beach volleyball.
I can't wait to get back in shape!
Having a friend with certain privileges is never easy unless you carelessly enjoy sleeping around. I never thought it was simple and I find myself in this situation. I find myself wondering if this will ever go somewhere or if one of us will just find someone new and call it quits.A part of me says, "Leave," while the other says, "Stay. How often do you run into someone like him and shares that much passion for music?" He is my friend and little more.
However, I have to admit.. I enjoy being untitled to any sort of commitment. I'm not one who enjoys having two different partners so, of course, they have nothing to worry about, which leaves me to be the one worried.
I can't point fingers toward anyone because I placed myself in this position. Correct?
..maybe.
Because so-and-so and I are "buddies", I have to constantly remind myself not to put my heart out there.
I feel like I'm trying to catch something I know can never be caught. In fact, I'm unaware of all the reasons why I should be chasing after him in the first place. His heart is flying forward in front of me chasing after dreams and I've become restless.On a brighter note, besides babysitting, work and school is starting to pick up again, which will definitely keep me occupied. :]
I need to keep myself active again. It's been a while!
Class is starting tomorrow and I'm excited! Tomorrow I'm taking a Japanese martial arts class called Naginata, which requires a spear. Afterward, beach volleyball.
I can't wait to get back in shape!
Ash Wednesday.. Once again.
I was browsing the web and found this guy's blog spot. I really admire it: http://street-art-tel-aviv.blogspot.com/
Thank you, Daniel Romano.
What will I give up for lent?
...A messy room?
Thank you, Daniel Romano.
What will I give up for lent?
...A messy room?
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Faith
A minute ago, my mom said, "You, know.. I bought some Lotto but I can't seem to find it."
It's funny because she's been gambling on Lottos for.. Geez.. more than I can remember hoping one day she'll win the jackpot. I started thinking about people in general and how they still go at it too. It's amazing isn't it?
To think of it, it's kind of nice. It puts some sort of ease to my head knowing that people still have faith. No matter how much money you lose spending on lottery numbers, you still seem to never give up. It's like you always have something to look forward to...to give you that little jump inside. On the other hand, it's an addiction.. But who ever said addictions were always bad? Maybe putting all of your effort into one thing is a good thing. Maybe its what gives you comfort inside or that spice in your life. Who knows?!
I don't know.. it's just a thought that really hit me and I guess it's something I admire.
I don't plan on paying for lottery tickets though. I just wish I could find that addiction.. that one thing that truly gives a push or sort of excitement to my life
Oh, wait! That's right... my guitar. hahaha
Well, anyways.. Whether you lose or not, without fail, it's nice to see how people still have faith on the tiniest even most unluckiest things in life.
It's funny because she's been gambling on Lottos for.. Geez.. more than I can remember hoping one day she'll win the jackpot. I started thinking about people in general and how they still go at it too. It's amazing isn't it?
To think of it, it's kind of nice. It puts some sort of ease to my head knowing that people still have faith. No matter how much money you lose spending on lottery numbers, you still seem to never give up. It's like you always have something to look forward to...to give you that little jump inside. On the other hand, it's an addiction.. But who ever said addictions were always bad? Maybe putting all of your effort into one thing is a good thing. Maybe its what gives you comfort inside or that spice in your life. Who knows?!
I don't know.. it's just a thought that really hit me and I guess it's something I admire.
I don't plan on paying for lottery tickets though. I just wish I could find that addiction.. that one thing that truly gives a push or sort of excitement to my life
Oh, wait! That's right... my guitar. hahaha
Well, anyways.. Whether you lose or not, without fail, it's nice to see how people still have faith on the tiniest even most unluckiest things in life.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
In The Waiting Line
I came home around 1:30am last night from Tiana's new apartment. Welcome back to SoCal!! :P
Anyways, when I went to bed, I had the hardest time falling asleep. I checked my phone and noticed it was 4:33am. Do you know what that means?? That means I've been laying in bed for about 3 hours!! I started growing a headache, which made it even worse. I tried listening to the Garden State soundtrack hoping it would help me fall asleep but NO. I tried calling a couple of friends hoping they would be awake and, yet, still no luck.
Sooo.. I turned to my last resort, which was vicodin, and I was really doing my best to stay away from it. I remember having left overs from the day I had my wisdom teeth pulled out.
Jackie, Tara, me and whoever else are planning on watching "Valentine's Day" in theatres tomorrow since we're singles who have no valentine.
....FAIL. haha >__<
Today's looking like a nice day for a walk.
Anyways, when I went to bed, I had the hardest time falling asleep. I checked my phone and noticed it was 4:33am. Do you know what that means?? That means I've been laying in bed for about 3 hours!! I started growing a headache, which made it even worse. I tried listening to the Garden State soundtrack hoping it would help me fall asleep but NO. I tried calling a couple of friends hoping they would be awake and, yet, still no luck.
Sooo.. I turned to my last resort, which was vicodin, and I was really doing my best to stay away from it. I remember having left overs from the day I had my wisdom teeth pulled out.
Jackie, Tara, me and whoever else are planning on watching "Valentine's Day" in theatres tomorrow since we're singles who have no valentine.
....FAIL. haha >__<
Today's looking like a nice day for a walk.
First Time Playing Together
Judy and I met after a show we both had played at in 2008. We kept in contact through myspace but never saw each other since the show. She randomly texts me one day asking if I wanted to play for a Haiti Acoustic Show, which she was hosting. Gladly, I confirmed.
After we finished performing that night (last night), we decided to learn "The Way I Am" by Ingrid Michaelson so we can play it at the show (just for kicks).
Keep in mind, we barely had any practice so bear with us! hahaha
After we finished performing that night (last night), we decided to learn "The Way I Am" by Ingrid Michaelson so we can play it at the show (just for kicks).
Keep in mind, we barely had any practice so bear with us! hahaha
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